In fact, I'm more scattered & mentally exhausted than I've been in years. I can barely focus on anything, not even important stuff. - Starmama

:( *hugs* I hope you can stay strong. - LB ❤s FF, esp. YOU

*hugs* - John (bird whisperer)

Courage, sister. - Corinne L

I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time. I hope your in-person network can help you shoulder some of the burden. Give yourself as many rest breaks and as much self-care as you think you can afford to. (((Starmama))) - Spidra Webster

I really don't have a network irl people either rely on me for help or get angry or distant when I panic. I'm so alone and I know I need to stfu & stop whining about my business on social media but it's either talk about it here or scream and cry by myself all day and night. - Starmama

The people you've helped before should be here for you now. I know it's not easy, but try not to panic as it usually saps you of the very will you need to cope. If a friend there is available, invite them to tea/coffee/whatever and ask them if they'll help you strategize. Let them know you need them now...not in a panicky way but in a calm honest way. Hopefully they'll be there for you and can help center you when you're getting overwhelmed. Just sitting down making a list of things can help you feel like you're handing things...as long as you don't let it overwhelm you. Seeing things on a piece of paper can help you decide what is low priority and what is high. Then you can isolate those high priority things and concentrate on just one step at a time. Focusing on one step at a time is a good method to keep from being overwhelmed, as much as is possible. - Spidra Webster

There are Jewish organizations in the Bay Area that can help, I think. http://www.jfcs-eastbay.org/financi... http://www.oaklandsinai.org/emergen... And of course, there are non-sectarian organizations that may also have resources. So if you're having trouble getting your network to be supportive, you may be able to make an appt with someone from one of these orgs and they can at the very least provide an ear, and maybe provide referrals and resources. http://amwftrust.org/aaron-m... - Spidra Webster

I'm so sorry that life is being so unkind to you, Starmama. You deserve better. And we're here for you. Don't feel bad about speaking your mind. *hug* - Jenny H.

(((Hug))) - Marie