Lately it has dawned on me that I was this incredibly awesome, though odd, person when I was a little kid. And the process of "growing up" for me was abandoning myself and trying to be this other thing that was expected. I grieved that loss, then tried to forget it. But it seems this buried part of me never died, just hid, and ever so gradually...
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... I am turning back into myself. Recently I read "have the guts to act worthy of yourself," and I decided to have the guts to be worthy of my four-year-old self. Because damn, she was cool. (I wish I had a picture to insert here!)
- Lo
Lo, that is wonderful! I had a similar revelation a while ago.
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I still vividly remember the first time I hated myself, when I was so small. Lately I just keep mentally hugging that little girl and saying "Fuck the haters! They're just jealous!" :P
- Lo